Monsoon (Kid Version)

(Intended for kids 15 or below  )

“I m out of my lousy dream
I watch through my window frame
I feel the monsoon drizzle ,as it kissd
I am pulld in deep beneath,may b drz tings i missd

Wish i could go back n time again
To stand out and soak in rain
To throw my arms out wide,and close my eyes
Smiling like i found where da happiness lies

If i could choose, i would chase away the rain
Throw myself to ground, get ma cloths n mud stain
Wondering how my mom would roar
Id tiptoe and sneak n to house through backdoor 

May b therz things sweeter beyond dream
Like watchin monsoon pour, sippin my ice cream
Strugglin to keep the umbrella just right
When these crazy winds puts on a fight 

But i cnt go bak, they say i m grown
So ill shut the window and ill be gone
Just another thing n time i lost
And ive heard “innocence can never last “ 

Spell Bound

This one is for playing me down

For mocking me, for acting like I'm outta town

For all those who had a laugh at my expense

Thank you so much, it had spread a vast extend

This one is for making me weak

I wanted to scream, you'll never know what it takes to stay meek

Have you wondered how much your words can hurt?

All u ever made me feel was ,like I'm  captain of a sinking boat

I cant stand up and may be its just my fault

And that’s exactly why I locked myself away in the vault

What do u see in me, a shitless kid??

That’s what you have done to me, that’s what you've fed

I cant look back in to your eyes, too shy ??

I cant speak what I mean, ask me why

If I tried, I would choke when I talk

Like all the words I know,wrap themselves in some invincible cloak

Don’t think I don’t remember things you've said

I've noted it down, filled it up in my head

Revenge, one day I'll come to hunt you down

And If I cant find you, I'll burn your whole town

One day my time will come, and may be I'll gloat

You can try drowning me, but I'll still float

I'll hit the top, then imma explode till you loose your count

Then You can drop your jaws and stare at me spellbound

A Winter, some twenty years ago

Big Dude :"yo, you next. Welcome to paradise ("with a smirk ")

Me:"keep that smile for ua self.. It’s a shame that we have to stay in queue.?? Man im not feeln this heaven thing yo.

Big dude : "watch ya mouth son. Heaven is  no place  to complain. These humans ..,I wonder y god created em? Such arrogant gene. Look at you . U have just been created., not even sent to earth… and haven't even met the god for a single time. And u already  got complaints about how this place is run!!!!. Now go get your self presentable before god.  He havent got all day.

(so im taken in front of god for the first time and big dude left,leaving god for company  and

Before he leaves he whispers in my ears " first day at the office ,make him proud")

Me : yo, homie!! Hows it goining.,? I like this place. !!!gorgeous !!!

(god  gets freaked out by the way I ve introduced my self and luks me through the corner of his eyes )

God :"do u have any idea who I am??? I'm "THE GOD". For gods sake don’t you think I deserve some respect.???huh?

Me: arighty.i'm sorry I just was trying to be cool.u know…?!

God :"well, I aint impressed. !!!now, lets talk business. So this is all the characteristics  you are gonna get while ua life on earth.!!!

Me : I like the sound of that. !!!

God : "I don’t like ur language.!!!

Me : sorry, im just carried away u know…!!

God: so ua qualities………….

Me : god,god,god , " am I gonna have the 'hot' luks????

God :"  looks ??,nope!!the guy before you, he just had it!!

Me :"awwww…..m that’s sad.so what do I get?

God:"son.!!actually ,the point is, since its december and theres just couple of days for new year  and this being a holiday season…….uhhhh, so….

Me : SOOOOOOOOOOO???

God :"so, we are actually out of qualities…and we don’t get it refilled till new year stock comes in.

Me : but, my D.O.B says I'm due tomorrow…!! How is that that possible???? WAIT A MINUTE !!! Does that mean,I'm not gonna get any talent???

God :that’s really an negative way to put it ,kid. Look at the brighter side, you have been given a chance to prove the humans that you can survive on earth,with these limited talent !!!! Isnt it amazing !!!W.O.W!!! ( trying to bring a pleasant expression on his place )

Me :aha!!!!dont sell me that. I aint buying any of that trick you 're playing………… I need talents!!!!

God :just in case, u forgot, this is my place and things work here the way I want it. I'm the one giving orders here,not you. You have the right to remain silent!!!

Me: I'm sorry. I just got emotional…I think u understand

God : well , since u r in this special circumstance , I think I can forgive wot u said.!!

Me: so, are u gonna sent me empty handed to earth??  Isnt there any talent left at all??

God: well let me see what I can do!!!

We'll start with courage, since theres isnt much left in stock, I must say, you're not  goining to be  a brave kid. then,smartness !uh,no luck with that too, u're gonna have a real tough time trying to be famous around ppl…, u wont be much of a social kinda person…,  will have a big communication problem….if u expose all ua weakness , u might have bad time gettin bullied at school. Cover it  up son. Then the looks!,since u wanted to be hot!! Well ,we are completely out of it. U know , every one asks for  making them hot and smart… wot could I do son….!! Well , we have bit of innocence left here.. I think liltle extra innocence must be  kind of of consolation for you. !! Then in to talents…., hmm , u know ,everyone wants to be a singer, rockstar , film star, sportstars,……just too many stars on earth than in the universe….so cant give u any of those….may be  there is little bit of a writing talent left in here…would you like that??

Me : am I goining to be a famous writter??

God : (chuckles) no son, we havent got that much talent left, I think u might be able to get an applause from your friends if u try real hard. But remember, u r going to be just a small time, always remember to keep your head on your shoulders.

Me: well, what can I say. You are god.!!!

God: oh!!! Don’t be so hard on yourself.you 're gonna survive..

Me : yeah great. So what about my partner. Will  I get someone wonderful atleast or are you gonna say" sorry dude, we are out of gals ???" huh

God :" haha…I like the sarcasm there. As a matter of fact I have got little sarcasm left over here. May be I vil give it to you. Atleast you can can make fun of people!!!;) .and about the gal , well don’t worry about that… I will make sure you get someone worth it. I wont let you down on that.

Me : thank you , finally!!!

God : since you are getting very little in built.., I will give u a lovely parents and sis.

Me :what about friends??

God: hmm that’s up to you… well given your character , I wouldn’t put a lot of money on u bieng famous around a lot  of people :p

Me : that’s so demoralising…..

God : don’t worry ,u will be my favourite, son!!!

Me : ahhh….come on , you say that to every human !!!

God : haha…….. Wot can I say… I'm god, I cant choose to be biased. Everyone's my favourite..,at least when there are born……..

Me : so will I be successful ….?

God : ah….that's all up to you, what you make out of your life

Me : come on, you know  everything,!!!

God :  don’t flatter me ,!!!! Well given ua talents, let me put it this way " life is no walk in the park son"

Me: I think  I know wot that means

God :don’t worry ,  I will through u a bone, when u're in trouble…believe me ..i always will…

Me :ahh.soo

(big dude walks in ,)

Big dude : " your time is up. Time to hit the dirt.

(takes me away  and as I was ready  to be transported to earth, he luks at me again )

Big dude : see u at ua coffin (winks)!!!

Till I Rot

(The character mentioned here is fictitious):

I'm walking on my own

This lonely road that stretches all along

I've been through this path before

But tonight head is heavy, my heart is sore

I feel no more , I've long lost my smile

My mind is numb , my thoughts embraced filthy line

Bathed in sin ,I've clothed my evil soul

I've stepped on tears, my pride has taken its toll

I've sold my soul ,I've bought all I could take

I've traded my heart ,replaced it with hate

I saw no good ,I saw no god ,I never turned back

I built my fortress  , grabbed an empire and I painted 'em black

Tonight I'm all alone, I'm afraid to think

I can smell me stink , I can feel me sink

Regret have filled my mind ,darkness filled my eyes

I'm blind ,its too late, I wish I had chose the otherwise

Now,the storm strikes in and cold wind blows

I wish this pouring rain could wash away my flaws

To cleanse my heart and soothe my soul

If these winds could carry me somewhere I could start over it all

Rain have soaked me wet ,but I'm drenched in grief

I'm drowning in tears ,shedding like an autumn leaf

I stripped all my clothes and I'll pray awful lot

Let my heart bleed , till I rot

Airplanes

Well there is a song named "Airplanes" too.im not going in to it coz, I don’t want to test your patience .Well right in to the topic. I've always wanted to write something serious. Actually, every time I start writing ,I got that "take the world by storm, with these words I form" expression on my face. Then with just two words  written ,all that expression deflates and by the time I finish writing , my face would be all red like a newly wed bride. Shy!, covering my face with my hands, not having the balls to read what I wrote down, thinking to myself ,'why do I write so silly'? .Well ,right now I got that inflated face, so before my face turn red, let me write something down !!!

This time its about my little journey abroad, 'the middle east' they say.It was during one of those study vacation. I was enjoying the V.I.P treatment at  my grandma's place. You know, tasty food ,complete dominance over tv remote, no ' harsh questioning looks seeking explanation for  coming  late or where I've been. Nothing!!! Just complete freedom. It was like I was on some gorgeous beach laying down, sipping some exotic fruit juice enjoying a vacation. That's what grandma's place  literally is  for me !!. One morning, well it must've been like 12. My mom calls it afternoon !, so I will follow her angle..see I respect my elders!!! So, one afternoon, my mom calls up and gets all senti !.She was like "son,you don’t call us, you don’t attend our phone , and even if you do, you don’t talk much and so on.!" I was all confused and was trying to analyze the whole sentence ! All of a sudden she pauses for a second. That’s when the danger bell rang in my head. Bcoz when she gives a pause ,it normally means "bad news".So after the pause she gives a wicked smile and says "pack up sweetheart!  We have send you the papers, you are flying tomorrow!make sure you pack all your books too! Welcome home!!" .All of  a sudden the whole scene changes.Instead of me sipping juice, now it was like  me sitting at concentration camp scratching my head :p (yeah im exaggerating .actually my parents are sweet !!).  I did try convincing my mom that I don’t want to come. But my mom just had readymade solutions for all the excuse I made. well I will try picturise  the conversation between mom and me using a greenday song..

Me :"mom!,home is the place where your heart is!!!

Mom:" what a shame,coz everyone's heart doesn’t beat the same !!! ;)

So, the bottom line is  "Game,set,match, mom!!!".

The very next day I was flying to the land I ve heard so much about.i didn’t have anytrouble during the check in, if I ignore the keralites trying to sneak in to the queue.!! So I got in to the plane.I was a bit dissapointed, because I ve seen the ad of fly emirates and etihad etc. But this plane was nothing better than your taxi cab!! Then I got in to ma seat, took a deep breath and consolidated myself saying "air india express !!what did you expect ?!!!"So after while ,the flight took off. That’s when I realised the condition of this thing. I really believed that this aircraft must have seen the world war 1 .its that old. Once the flight started gaining speed, the whole craft started making awful noise like the whole  thing was about to blow .Over the years ,I ve heard many people   saying that theres a lot of childhood left in me.well at that moment I realised it coz I wanted to scream "mom! I wanna go home. This thing is gonna blow. I am gonna die"!!!...suddenly the guy sitting next to me patted my shoulders and said "air india !dont worry ,it happens"!! I think that guy saw the childhood left in me too :P!  .Soon after they played some movie on the t.v and airhostess served me tea and a pastry and finally after 4 hours of  roller coaster ride I reached ma destination. Once I stepped in to their airport I started  shivering!!now that’s what I call air conditioning. I really doubt if air india had fans in planes instead of a/c because only thing cold in that plane was the tea they served me.well that’s it I met ma parents and I reached home.

Well,this country is really small,Just three hour drive from one end to another.Few shopping malls and lot of indians.Actually I used to look out of my window and I see a lot of keralites roaming around and once in a while  I would see an arab. That’s how abundant indians are around here. The most important change that occurred during my stay there was  that I started devoloping sentiments to  pakisthani's out there. It’s a sad story. Every morning I would wake up , and since there was nothing much to do, I would peep out of the window most of the time.and everyday there was this common sight. There would be group of people mainly north indians and pakisthani's  who would wait on the road side eagerly watching at every vehicle passing by. At first I didn’t know what it was and one day I asked  about them to ma parents and they told  this sad story. Those people came here on free visa and they hav no permanent job. So what they are doing is hoping for some arab to come offer them a job. May be cleaning their garden or any job at all. They pay em very cheap.so every morning they wait at roadside for someone to come and offer them a job for the day. Some days they get picked, some days they stay there till evening in the scorching sun unpicked. They cant afford to go home frequently,so  most of them goes once in 5 years .May be because they have to work that long to afford a ticket and some savings.I felt bad, suddenly all those  cricket defeats, and all  faded! I was kinda senti.

So about this place.First thing is that this people  have lot of money. And they have lot of  oil. If we convert them to rupees , 1 litre petrol  costs only rs 8!!and water costs thrice that amount!! Sad that we couldnt drink oil. Well they make everything out of oil. Electricity is made by burning  oil. Once it so happened that the electricity plant had to be taken down for  maitanance and there  was electricity restriction during day time and what these people did was during day all of them would drive around in car switching there a/c on till evening  till the  electricity is restored.  !! :O . Now., since the arabs are mostly rich, they drive all those fancy cars, ferrari's and lamborghini's. Well about the weather here. If you are paris hilton , you would turn black if u stay in the sun a couple of days .enough said.! And Theres a national food for the immigrants called kuboos.it costs around  equivalent to rs 2 here. Then one thing about this people, they are beautiful!! Have to admit that. if you are out in a mall you end up saying 'masha allah " a lot of times coz god have crafted them gorgeous.Theres also some funny side to it too .some of these gals would dress up in parda. And would leave their head uncovered and you can see their hair coloured  in every colour imaginalble! If I were a literature tutor I would quote it as a example for "irony"!! and some of them are so in to l'oreal and garnier 's  that , u would need a  xray eye with two inch depth to see thier real skin!:P

 well I just had a short stay there.theres a lot of things I skipped because right now my face is turned red already.So See ya. PEACE!!!!!

I Need A Doctor

There's this song by Dr.DRE called "I need a doctor "(featuring Eminem).The very last line of the song says"and as I pack my bags and leave,you will scream dre don’t leave us like that".Well this song has nothing to do with the post.("okey, now you guys are pissed off, first of all you 'll be wondering'who starts a blog with a mention about a song? And then, on the very third line says the song has nothing do with it'.Some of you must have also had shake of their heads and said" dude ,u do need a doctor ….probabily a pyschiatrist :P" ).Well before you guys shift your 'judging mind' set from 'sarcastic' to 'dude im gonna nail you':P, lemme find some thing to which I can relate this song .uhhhh…ya see first of all, a 'doctor' is a big part of my life ;)…nonono not the psychiatrist.,some other one. Second one is ,couple of  days ago I did pack my bag and leave out on journey.ya, it was a journey to meet this doctor too.See now I have made some relations with the song,so since we've come this far.,why don’t I take you through the journey ,…(don’t worry ,will take you guys out on a all expense paid trip") .

         Well it all started and I was having a beautiful dream and suddenly I hear  my name followed by a "*$#$@$@#$"!!!!!!!,get up ,u r gonna miss the train again"!!!okey that was ma roommate ,how  considerate!!!" :P  And I was half wake and was in no mood to wake up. So he.. said 'u got almost a cross country journey man….the doctor". Its been the strory of my life relly,waking up late  and missing trains.seriously!!!( theres this one movie dialogue ,bald vin diesel sayin"u win by an inch or u win by a mile…winning is winning"!well I neva believed it untill this one time I missed this train by almost an inch .chased it., couldn’t make that jump….. :p).well lets stick to the script . So that mrning I jumped from the bed, got ready in 15…,and set out on the chase….and with one prayer on my mind" indian railway daivangale…train late aavane :P). So as usual I missed the train :) so I had to reschedule.i was at ernakulam town. And I had to travel till manglore and from there  a 12 hour bus journey to almost the other side of karnataka. I had to reach manglore before 9 to catch the bus.so I asked this seriously luking, seemingly angry guy on enquiry section about ma chances of making it before 9.he just gave me look so stern as if I was dating his daughter :p and said "NO"!!just plain "NO"!!! So I made ma mind to try the connection train .And as I walked back ..i saw this board "indian railways,!!!serving customers with a smile"…and first thing that came to ma mind was that guy at enquiry section :p  !!! How true !!!...so let me cut down the details and put it this way .. I had to catch three train to make it to manglore. First one from ernakulam jn to calicut..,then on a local passenger till kannur ,then another tain frm kannur till mangalore. And I reached mangalore in time. It was all mixed emotions really…!!! Relief of making there in time., then this difficulty in realising that I had to switch between three train to make it !!im not sure if anyone before me had to do that…but I can bet my whole fortune that I should be in the top five " missed the train and screwed up" list  of all times!!!

So, its mangalore,and first  thing you notice is the language. Boy, they shout every single word. Literally screams at you.my first experience was at this hotel ,I walked in so damn hungry.i was waiting for a minute or two when the waiter showed up and he shouted at me. I was off guard.my mind was just trying to analyse the situation and the reason why this guy must be so pissed off. I was wonndering " well actually whoteva that guy said it seemed like a verbal threat, or did he abuse ma dad ? It certainly sounded bad:P or did he mistake me for some guy who borrowed money from him and never gave back?...my imagination  was running wild when this waiter pointed to the menu board  and gave me questioning look !!! That’s when I got it ,so my boy !,that’s how you ask…uh I mean, how you scream "what would you like to eat" in kannada"!!!:P phew!! Next phase was  at prepaid auto stand. I had to go to this place called "kodiyal bail" so I said  as it was written. This guy asked questioningly "hu

Yyu ve"??....nothing  came from his mouth it was flactuation of air that came from his nose that made the sound similar to the one  I mentioned…:p I don’t  know,may be kannada should be talked through nose…:p I didn’t know all this ….so I kept repeating this  kodiyal bail and that guy kept on playing symphnony through his noise… we had this argument going for a while (" the scence can be related to the pink pather 2 where the detective and the assistant argue over the  shampoo named "jojoba" but pronounced hohoba ":P)and finnally I gave up..,I was  like"godamn it take me somewhere ":p so that’s how I reched the bus stop and I got in to this lovely volvo sleeper bus and literally blacked out….seriously i couldn’t take any more . :P :P

The next thing I remember was, it was around 6 in the morning , I slowly came in to my concience and realised that I will be reaching  the place in about an hour and meeting this doctor very soon .i was all excited .so I just decided to take a view of the place around .so I  stared out of window and this is all I saw. It was beatiful. I mean long  green field, I mean I have  seen it on tv, but this was for

 real. Don’t know wot crop they grew, wot eva it was it lovely.theres was one or two houses and small shops in between.and theres sumthing really funny about them. The whole house  was painted with  advertisement.mostly mobile operator ads  coated the house. There was idea house, airtel house and docomos,realiances …everything.!! And one house was painted half by airtel and other half by uninor…lol!!!and the most outrangeous one I saw was the one which was painted reliance petroleum and reliance mobile…. That’s anil and mukhesh ambani's firms.so literally speaking " This farmer got both the brothers under  one roof.something even their father could not :P :P lol.then about these farmers…they are eco friendly!!! Now you will be wondering how I could make that out from a  bus? Well I cant elobarate on that.by eco friendly I mean ,they gave a lot back to nature…. I mean I saw this  one farmer in early morning on the paddy field with one big cup of water…..well that will do…. Lets just say they give a lot back to nature :P  ;)…. So  soon enough I entered  the city , and here I am just minutes away from meeting the doctor… I will leave it here and come back on meeting with the doctor episode later. !!!! :P

PEACE!!!!!

One Disturbed Mind

Okey this is my first post.Let me explain why I write this one down.The first reason is, this post would never  be read by anyone.Obviously your personal blog is the safest place in the world you can speak your mind.Its ironic ,isnt it ? Because every other day,u get a warning message from facebook claiming that some one from california have signed in  to your account or your e mail id been hacked.but when was the last time you saw a like or a comment or atleast a 'page view' from a unknown person on your blog? I know its disturbing,may be even demoralising for young budding bloggers out there, "hey just ignore me ,I m just one disturbed mind  ".

Okey by now u must have made up your mind ,judged me already and 90% of u must be thinking "sweet lord,this guy  got issues. Well I don’t know man,may be I m born this way. Now lets leave this behind .let me tell about my self. I am obssesed with words. I mean I don’t know how I inherited that trait but hey that’s the curse im blessed with. As a kid  I used to see those wordsworth poems and stuffs and I would be trying to figure out those rhyme schemes while rest of my classmates would be snoring.Although  rest of the periods I would be the one enjoying the pleasure of being sleepy in classroom. Guess what my favourite programs on tv was ? .it was odd for 9 th grader to watch those talk shows. Well the other thing I m obssesd with was football.so I would in room watching those football pundits  discussing  ,literally tearing each other down with their arguments,and I would be sitting  whole  hour for that one moment when some one uses a new figure of speech I havent heard of yet and I cant tell you how much it used to raise  my heart.the next phase was music….it waved its  influencial cloak over me when I was in 10 th or 11th.at first it was the back street boys ….well I realised quickly that it was just too soft for me. Then came greenday,linkin park and eminem. They came ,they sung and I started downloading their lyrics.:P Back then I wanted to be a lyricist, I know its funny, I even started writing a fewsongs…., well that’s when you realise ,and u consolidate yourself saying…."alright song writting is a stupid thing. Glad I am not good at it!!! :D  well that’s as  far as  every single  one of  my dream  had ever been chased.

Okey let me tell you about the other side of this 'word' obsession.i am a poor talker. May be that’s the the price god took from me for having ability to read between the lines. I mean my whole body has been architectured that way.brain is directly linked to  hands than that of ma tongue.moreover I am immensely blessed with stage fright, panic attack…etc etc….just name it.!so the beneficiaries of ma word  obsession  were few of friends .who could easily ask me to write up something to  pull off date with their gal friends.it was a package actually, they had nothing to risk. Because I would be the last one on earth their girls would ever doubt to have written such a stuff (given my comminication skill, they say it is an inch short of 0% risk). I wouldn’t care. I mean it was good ,at least it was appreciation of some sort ,at least I  m doing  a favour + the best part was when they would pat on my shoulders probably saying "you da man!!!" well it felt like m in a  gangter movies :D well it some times came with those extended gratitude speeches that usually includes"one day you will have a girlfriend too man….u rnt that bad u know lol :D that’s pretty much that chapter goes .then other person who could put gud use to this was my sister,  okey "her literature assigment  was really good for her age….. Her  teacher was really pleased" I remember my mom saying after one of those parents meeting  !! :)

Okey this is awful lot for today …..will write crap like this next time when I m as bored as  I am today…..!!!!  So I m outta this place!!!!

 PEACE!!!