One Disturbed Mind

Okey this is my first post.Let me explain why I write this one down.The first reason is, this post would never  be read by anyone.Obviously your personal blog is the safest place in the world you can speak your mind.Its ironic ,isnt it ? Because every other day,u get a warning message from facebook claiming that some one from california have signed in  to your account or your e mail id been hacked.but when was the last time you saw a like or a comment or atleast a 'page view' from a unknown person on your blog? I know its disturbing,may be even demoralising for young budding bloggers out there, "hey just ignore me ,I m just one disturbed mind  ".

Okey by now u must have made up your mind ,judged me already and 90% of u must be thinking "sweet lord,this guy  got issues. Well I don’t know man,may be I m born this way. Now lets leave this behind .let me tell about my self. I am obssesed with words. I mean I don’t know how I inherited that trait but hey that’s the curse im blessed with. As a kid  I used to see those wordsworth poems and stuffs and I would be trying to figure out those rhyme schemes while rest of my classmates would be snoring.Although  rest of the periods I would be the one enjoying the pleasure of being sleepy in classroom. Guess what my favourite programs on tv was ? .it was odd for 9 th grader to watch those talk shows. Well the other thing I m obssesd with was football.so I would in room watching those football pundits  discussing  ,literally tearing each other down with their arguments,and I would be sitting  whole  hour for that one moment when some one uses a new figure of speech I havent heard of yet and I cant tell you how much it used to raise  my heart.the next phase was music….it waved its  influencial cloak over me when I was in 10 th or 11th.at first it was the back street boys ….well I realised quickly that it was just too soft for me. Then came greenday,linkin park and eminem. They came ,they sung and I started downloading their lyrics.:P Back then I wanted to be a lyricist, I know its funny, I even started writing a fewsongs…., well that’s when you realise ,and u consolidate yourself saying…."alright song writting is a stupid thing. Glad I am not good at it!!! :D  well that’s as  far as  every single  one of  my dream  had ever been chased.

Okey let me tell you about the other side of this 'word' obsession.i am a poor talker. May be that’s the the price god took from me for having ability to read between the lines. I mean my whole body has been architectured that way.brain is directly linked to  hands than that of ma tongue.moreover I am immensely blessed with stage fright, panic attack…etc etc….just name it.!so the beneficiaries of ma word  obsession  were few of friends .who could easily ask me to write up something to  pull off date with their gal friends.it was a package actually, they had nothing to risk. Because I would be the last one on earth their girls would ever doubt to have written such a stuff (given my comminication skill, they say it is an inch short of 0% risk). I wouldn’t care. I mean it was good ,at least it was appreciation of some sort ,at least I  m doing  a favour + the best part was when they would pat on my shoulders probably saying "you da man!!!" well it felt like m in a  gangter movies :D well it some times came with those extended gratitude speeches that usually includes"one day you will have a girlfriend too man….u rnt that bad u know lol :D that’s pretty much that chapter goes .then other person who could put gud use to this was my sister,  okey "her literature assigment  was really good for her age….. Her  teacher was really pleased" I remember my mom saying after one of those parents meeting  !! :)

Okey this is awful lot for today …..will write crap like this next time when I m as bored as  I am today…..!!!!  So I m outta this place!!!!

 PEACE!!!