Loneliness

I feel so cold
i am all alone
something tat im so used to
meeting 'me' again,the 'me' long gone

Back in tis room,it neva grows old
same old place, da dejavu of darkness
Four crimson walls surrounds me
& tis uncertainity drenchd  mind

This is the 'me' , wot i chose to be
& dis doors been closin on me
ever since i've learnd to love
dis loneliness have clouded my mind

Now i feel way too odd
Left behind by every1 i cared
frustration is all tat is left
desperation., and im  left drowning


This is where ive livd dying
alone,betrayed by every one i stood for
or atleast  the ones i tot ,they cared
untill i end up in dis room, again


All u vil eva have z ua shadow
coz if love z blind ,it vil neva find u
 and if u hate to be lovd
u vil neva know wot it  z like to be alone

Monsoon

It must've be a cold monsoon evening

I still can recall da crowded clouds

I've been walking alone n da fading light

Striding down da streets,where i got grown

It was darkness all around

My hopes long dead and darker was my soul

Bearing a corpse of thousand broken dreams

In a world of beliefs, i've lost mine

I lukd around & i saw a light

It made da darkness lose its command

It was a girl across da road

Prettier than da words could describe

My body felt wet &drenchd

I was shiverin with coldness

In her i've lost track of time & space

It must've  been raining for a while

She was soaked and was helpless

In dis world of demons, i just saw an angel

I mind raced ma body up to her

Offerd a walk home under my umbrella

She smiled & it lightend up ma world

She stayd close&my mind cried with joy

I wishd she would stay wid me forever

She had me mesmerid n my tracks

cupid had me struck wid an angel

If she could hold my hand

I vil walk along dis lyf together

I could keep  her happy till my heart fails to beat

My mind was playing games

On dis i was on da losing side

We reached her home

She ran n to da waitin hands of a handsum boy

He took her in his strong

She had already found her man

She hold him close and waved me bye

May be "thank u" z all i am worth

Innocence

Innocence hav wreaked me weak

In a world,in its darkness i feel

Helpless, torn&scatterd in every single break

As i plead for my wound so deep to heal

I was free, careless and gay

Of respectd & admird childhood mist

And i couldnt hav forseen as i lay

That my life could change da way i rest

When did i change for worse

Wen did the me in I, wave me bye?

I cant remember me so cruel for a curse

Nor did i let a soul die before my eye

Reasons are not worth fighting for

Nomore do questions fake the truth

Ive fallen pray,no,not anymore

Surely me aint the first, got no time for rebirth