I thought I would withhold
Everything I am till I grew old
But tonight I feel like I'm bold
So I'm putting your calls on hold
And I'mma keep writing till im sold
My thoughts are too hot to be bored
I mma rhyme verses till my beats drop cold
I look at the mirror, damn I look seventeen
but watch my words ,coz my thoughts are keen
It often get ahead of myself and sound mean
sometimes Im hilarious like im your Mr bean
I need a vaccation, some place im never seen
So I'll close my eyes,write about things that mean
I can write , damn I feel proud of art in black n white
I'm evil, I should be issued a shoot at sight
I'm pouring my heart out, can I get a lime light?
See,I get straight to point,so sit tight
I keep having this dream,may be I'm right
watching y'all look at me with yours eyes bright
Like I'm above my demons, flying high like a friggin' kite
I swear, I mma still rhyme ,oh!i still might
Till I lose my rights,my dreams'll stay elite
The Walking Scribbler
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Friday, August 30, 2013
Saturday, May 4, 2013
Everything Else But You
Humans are simple. We are all the same. We don’t need a thousand
fancy phrases to describe ourselves. One word says it all.
"Imperfect", that’s what we are, and that’s what we will ever be!.
It's our quest for perfection that complicate us. A journey that hides between
a fairy four letter word "Life" .A bait we all love falling for over
and over again. Like a pierced tumbler , never completely filled, unsatisfied.
"Incomplete", that’s our middle name. We are a race that’s lives on
fairy books, Hiding our weakness in grandeur
of alphabets. Framing despair in to
destiny. Greed is what we raise, a never ending desire to hurt. Greed
has more relation to destiny than eternity ever will. We don’t have a voice. We
are dumb. Lies ! That’s what we feed on, whispered in our ears about the
sumptuousness of a prize so priceless that its worth living for. That’s what we
are told and we named our prize "success" . Success is like a false
bottom of the sea. A master illusion! ,always with in your sight. Tempting to get
a hold of , with a shyness of lady ,innocence of a baby ,slipping out of your
hands when you try. Always a bit deeper when you swim for it. Always this close
yet that far from you. Driving you deep in its charm, till you drown. Holy
grail wasn’t humanity's greatest lie, success is.
What makes you different from the one sitting next to you?. Isn't
it the path you chose to become perfect that makes you unique ?. Do we inspire
the ones around us or are we just jealous?. You envy in the happiness of the less unfortunate people than
you. You feel incomplete in the fortune you earned. And you feel your success
is further more apart when you see the luckier one's than you. So don’t you
think that’s what those unfortunate's feel when they look at your 'success'?.
Is your success inspiring anyone? . Your success is magnet that attracts the
one around you to your ruin. You are offering your hand to your friend to doom.
You're making a promise, you know you can't keep. So our purpose in life is to
hold each other's hand and walk in to the pit of fire! Is it why we are sent?
To raise hell.??? . So why are we so
desperate to live another minute? to watch one more friend die?. What have we
become? Mass murderers ,?.. Or are we the angel of death?
No, we are humans, the most distinguished species that ever lived
on planet earth. The most privileged ! But what's left of that heavenly
creations, we don’t know.! Now we are a disease ,spreading from one to the
other ,corrupting our own purpose. Surrendering our rightful freedom and
entangling ourselves in chain of lies. But, there is one little piece left in
us. Hope! That is the only thing that is common among all of us now. It's that little piece of goodness that we possess. That little remainder , that we all are made for good . No matter how evil your deeds are ,how much you've hurt, there's still that moment of kindness left in all of us. So may be its time that we leave our chase to be perfect. Let
go of your invincible dreams, not your inhibitions. Freedom is not what we
should earn for all our lives, it is our
right to breathe, it's our ability to feel, our virtue to be grateful, the
depth to forgive, our desire to love, our nature to care ,We are the blessing
to the world from heaven. We are humans!
Genleman, I had your curiousity, and now let me have your
attention.! Allright, I think we got off on the wrong foot here, fellas. This
is the easiest blog so far, it's easy and I'll tell you why. Its coz, I have no
idea what I'm talking about. This is my protest to those philosophy preaching ,
'god knows what 'talking peoples around us. I'm a 22 year old shitless kid.
I've no idea what half of things I wrote above means. Philosophy and fancy
phrases are easy, all you need is couple of words ,imaginary power of a 10th
grade school kid and amateur skill in manipulating words. If I could do ,so can
all those people around me. So to people
who walk around saying" holy death ,rise you, mother of eternity ,wrap me
in your arms " or " mother
nature, I can't wait to come back to you " or " life is a lesson" and so on…, .i got just one
thing to tell y'all. Anyone can write stuff like that and if this was your idea
of being cool and getting attention, I say we aint impressed. And the reason
why we don’t go around saying shit like
this is cause "WE GOT A LIFE" and you people, not really !!!
Friday, January 25, 2013
The Boy With No Name
This post is all about me. Having said that,
I'll be starting with a mention of a person who isn't even remotely related to
me. His name is Jim Carrey. Yes ,the one from 'The Mask'. I know most of us
have watched it 'lost the count' number of times when we were at school. The
reason why I'm mentioning him is that, this guy has something to do with the
title of this post. We all know Clint Eastwood right?, the man who made movies
so real that it made us all feel as if his movies were inspired by our lives
(every single time!). Well I'm quoting Jim Carrey's theory about Clint Eastwood
movies here.
"We see that the boy who got bullied at school
grows up one day to be 'ass kicked' by
the 'man with no name ', and the reason why I think he had no name was may be
because we could fill in our own "
I'm not here,
comparing Clint Eastwood with me. Hell No!! But there is something in those
lines I could borrow to describe the purpose of my blog. But then, I'll have to take you all back in time.
This is my Third blog and it all started in 2011. My first
blog was all soft, mostly wrote on adrenaline and the 'rookie' instinct of a
fresher college kid. I think I named the blog just right too. I named it as the
French dialect for 'jubilation'. In fact the phrase and my 'real name formed a
humble 'Alliteration'. I don’t want to brag about it much but I'll put it this
way " Back then ,most of the contents of
my blog were rather soft and touchy. Yes, touchy like it sticks. And if you are
a kid who never grew up I would say, my contents were like your favorite
chocolate u forgot to keep in refrigerator. And if you are a kid who never
wanted to grow up , I l expand it for u , it’s like the melted chocolate that you loved licking
out of your fingers. It was untidy , but yet it tasted good, didn't
they?.". Then the following year I came up with much more magical
title. May be reason was , that a person
I knew told me that there was a bit of magic in the words I formed. So I
assumed my blog name and the self-declared "alter ego" in the fond
memory of wizards. Let me be honest with you here. I'm much more of an
illusionist than a wizard and I'll tell you why. They say wizards are people
who actually does things which an illusionist pretends to. I also know that my
strength is not the depth or the talent. It's more like I can ,to a very small
extend at least, create illusions of words. For example, I could talk about a
simple silly thing and scribble the words around in a variable combinations and
make it appear attractive and interesting, stealing your attention as if I am
talking about the hot girl you always wanted to go out with. I guess you can
call me that I'm an artist of Deceit. I know it's a skill that most of you
people don’t give a damn about. I'm grateful to God and proud though. It isn't
exactly something people love to sing about but, it's sort of what they say
"it's a talent, you either got it or you don’t". I don’t think it's
something that people can achieve on
practice or hard work , its rather something that comes out of your crazy
little mind with a ferocity of avalanche, all the way to your fingertips when
you hold your pen. Despite it all I
chose wizard and that’s something I
still can't explain. And accidently, 'word and wizard ' seemed to alliterate as
well. 2012 was one hell of an year. A lot of things changed, some for better,
some bitter and other few I'm not still quite sure of. But , one thing I'm sure
of is that, I turned twenty that year. And , as I gave the 'Twenty One guns'
salute to my 'fallen' teenage, a sort of revelation struck. I was horrified at
the fact that I'm finally twenty. The number 20 beside my age column almost
gave me a nervous breakdown. The first thing I did was removing a song from my
playlist. The song was called "Waving Flag". You might have heard it
if u were in to football. Well the problem with the song was that its lyric was
contradictory to my present state of affairs. The song said "when I get
older, I will be stronger" and the whole world loved it and so did
I(Although, I believe that the original version of the song was more intense
than the celebration mix he created for the world cup).But when I turned 20, it
was like the equation didn't add up. I was like I am already grown up, And If I
had to be strong it was now. It is true, isn't it? . So I tried to flex my
muscles and brought some changes to the things I blogged about. I tried to bring in
the "best of both worlds " in my own way. Like heaven and earth, man
and god, hate and love, sarcasm and innocence, revenge and sacrifice, love and
hate. Well, my blog wasn't as grand as it might sound to you people right now,
but then I told you, I am good at creating illusions . Haven't I ?
Now,
there is one thing common about my two blogs. I never revealed my name. I'll
try and tell you the reason by the time I'm done with this post. I've dragged
you along too far with the past. Now it's time to talk about the present. Even
this blog is based on something I learned. All our life, as long as our memory
could travel back in time, there's only one thing that is common to all of us.
Beneath our skin, behind that carefree mask we wore there was one thing that we
all longed to become. In the furthest corner of your heart ,there was little
kid who kept saying " one day I'll grow up to be something I'll be proud
of". And I'm damn sure that every
single time, even when our life came crashing down like a house of cards, there
was that one dream you never let go. So, that's what this blog is all about.
It's about that kid deep in my heart I never let go. It’s the voice in my head
I chose to ignore. Now, this is my little dream brought to life in 'black and
white'. But I know if you put your head through this post , you'll agree that
this is no better than an autobiography of a self-obsessed fancy kid. I'm here
to prove that if you are still reading this line, it shows that sometimes we
all look beyond the flaws and appreciate reading the silly matters of our daily
life. We might not have the guts to scream out loud but I know we all sometimes
feel that even in our unsung normal lives, we often play out roles amazing than
in the movies, we are sometimes a hero on daily basis, we survived tragedies others
couldn’t have imagine, we know love beyond the love songs, we know to smile
while we cry and we know our life has stories worthy to be read. That’s what I want to write
about. I want to write about things you could relate to. The things you nod
your head to, even without taking a walk in my shoes. Because I know that what
we all seek is not a grand idea or rocket science mysteries, sometimes all we
want is a routine incident described with humor, a straight tale made
interesting or simple story told with all its heart. And that’s all I scribble
about.
May
be I'll have to stop now. I guess I made my point. And if u still ask me why my
earlier blogs had no name?. It was may be because you could fill in your own.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Monsoon (Kid Version)
(Intended for kids 15 or below )
“I m out of my lousy dream
I watch through my window frame
I feel the monsoon drizzle ,as it kissd
I am pulld in deep beneath,may b drz tings i missd
I watch through my window frame
I feel the monsoon drizzle ,as it kissd
I am pulld in deep beneath,may b drz tings i missd
Wish i could go back n time again
To stand out and soak in rain
To throw my arms out wide,and close my eyes
Smiling like i found where da happiness lies
To stand out and soak in rain
To throw my arms out wide,and close my eyes
Smiling like i found where da happiness lies
If i could choose, i would chase away the rain
Throw myself to ground, get ma cloths n mud stain
Wondering how my mom would roar
Id tiptoe and sneak n to house through backdoor
Throw myself to ground, get ma cloths n mud stain
Wondering how my mom would roar
Id tiptoe and sneak n to house through backdoor
May b therz things sweeter beyond dream
Like watchin monsoon pour, sippin my ice cream
Strugglin to keep the umbrella just right
When these crazy winds puts on a fight
Like watchin monsoon pour, sippin my ice cream
Strugglin to keep the umbrella just right
When these crazy winds puts on a fight
But i cnt go bak, they say i m grown
So ill shut the window and ill be gone
Just another thing n time i lost
And ive heard “innocence can never last “
So ill shut the window and ill be gone
Just another thing n time i lost
And ive heard “innocence can never last “
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Spell Bound
This one is for playing me down
For mocking me, for acting like I'm outta town
For all those who had a laugh at my expense
Thank you so much, it had spread a vast extend
This one is for making me weak
I wanted to scream, you'll never know what it takes to stay meek
Have you wondered how much your words can hurt?
All u ever made me feel was ,like I'm captain of a sinking boat
I cant stand up and may be its just my fault
And that’s exactly why I locked myself away in the vault
What do u see in me, a shitless kid??
That’s what you have done to me, that’s what you've fed
I cant look back in to your eyes, too shy ??
I cant speak what I mean, ask me why
If I tried, I would choke when I talk
Like all the words I know,wrap themselves in some invincible cloak
Don’t think I don’t remember things you've said
I've noted it down, filled it up in my head
Revenge, one day I'll come to hunt you down
And If I cant find you, I'll burn your whole town
One day my time will come, and may be I'll gloat
You can try drowning me, but I'll still float
I'll hit the top, then imma explode till you loose your count
Then You can drop your jaws and stare at me spellbound
Saturday, August 18, 2012
A Winter, some twenty years ago
Big Dude :"yo, you next. Welcome to paradise ("with a smirk ")
Me:"keep that smile for ua self.. It’s a shame that we have to stay in queue.?? Man im not feeln this heaven thing yo.
Big dude : "watch ya mouth son. Heaven is no place to complain. These humans ..,I wonder y god created em? Such arrogant gene. Look at you . U have just been created., not even sent to earth… and haven't even met the god for a single time. And u already got complaints about how this place is run!!!!. Now go get your self presentable before god. He havent got all day.
(so im taken in front of god for the first time and big dude left,leaving god for company and
Before he leaves he whispers in my ears " first day at the office ,make him proud")
Me : yo, homie!! Hows it goining.,? I like this place. !!!gorgeous !!!
(god gets freaked out by the way I ve introduced my self and luks me through the corner of his eyes )
God :"do u have any idea who I am??? I'm "THE GOD". For gods sake don’t you think I deserve some respect.???huh?
Me: arighty.i'm sorry I just was trying to be cool.u know…?!
God :"well, I aint impressed. !!!now, lets talk business. So this is all the characteristics you are gonna get while ua life on earth.!!!
Me : I like the sound of that. !!!
God : "I don’t like ur language.!!!
Me : sorry, im just carried away u know…!!
God: so ua qualities………….
Me : god,god,god , " am I gonna have the 'hot' luks????
God :" looks ??,nope!!the guy before you, he just had it!!
Me :"awwww…..m that’s sad.so what do I get?
God:"son.!!actually ,the point is, since its december and theres just couple of days for new year and this being a holiday season…….uhhhh, so….
Me : SOOOOOOOOOOO???
God :"so, we are actually out of qualities…and we don’t get it refilled till new year stock comes in.
Me : but, my D.O.B says I'm due tomorrow…!! How is that that possible???? WAIT A MINUTE !!! Does that mean,I'm not gonna get any talent???
God :that’s really an negative way to put it ,kid. Look at the brighter side, you have been given a chance to prove the humans that you can survive on earth,with these limited talent !!!! Isnt it amazing !!!W.O.W!!! ( trying to bring a pleasant expression on his place )
Me :aha!!!!dont sell me that. I aint buying any of that trick you 're playing………… I need talents!!!!
God :just in case, u forgot, this is my place and things work here the way I want it. I'm the one giving orders here,not you. You have the right to remain silent!!!
Me: I'm sorry. I just got emotional…I think u understand
God : well , since u r in this special circumstance , I think I can forgive wot u said.!!
Me: so, are u gonna sent me empty handed to earth?? Isnt there any talent left at all??
God: well let me see what I can do!!!
We'll start with courage, since theres isnt much left in stock, I must say, you're not goining to be a brave kid. then,smartness !uh,no luck with that too, u're gonna have a real tough time trying to be famous around ppl…, u wont be much of a social kinda person…, will have a big communication problem….if u expose all ua weakness , u might have bad time gettin bullied at school. Cover it up son. Then the looks!,since u wanted to be hot!! Well ,we are completely out of it. U know , every one asks for making them hot and smart… wot could I do son….!! Well , we have bit of innocence left here.. I think liltle extra innocence must be kind of of consolation for you. !! Then in to talents…., hmm , u know ,everyone wants to be a singer, rockstar , film star, sportstars,……just too many stars on earth than in the universe….so cant give u any of those….may be there is little bit of a writing talent left in here…would you like that??
Me : am I goining to be a famous writter??
God : (chuckles) no son, we havent got that much talent left, I think u might be able to get an applause from your friends if u try real hard. But remember, u r going to be just a small time, always remember to keep your head on your shoulders.
Me: well, what can I say. You are god.!!!
God: oh!!! Don’t be so hard on yourself.you 're gonna survive..
Me : yeah great. So what about my partner. Will I get someone wonderful atleast or are you gonna say" sorry dude, we are out of gals ???" huh
God :" haha…I like the sarcasm there. As a matter of fact I have got little sarcasm left over here. May be I vil give it to you. Atleast you can can make fun of people!!!;) .and about the gal , well don’t worry about that… I will make sure you get someone worth it. I wont let you down on that.
Me : thank you , finally!!!
God : since you are getting very little in built.., I will give u a lovely parents and sis.
Me :what about friends??
God: hmm that’s up to you… well given your character , I wouldn’t put a lot of money on u bieng famous around a lot of people :p
Me : that’s so demoralising…..
God : don’t worry ,u will be my favourite, son!!!
Me : ahhh….come on , you say that to every human !!!
God : haha…….. Wot can I say… I'm god, I cant choose to be biased. Everyone's my favourite..,at least when there are born……..
Me : so will I be successful ….?
God : ah….that's all up to you, what you make out of your life
Me : come on, you know everything,!!!
God : don’t flatter me ,!!!! Well given ua talents, let me put it this way " life is no walk in the park son"
Me: I think I know wot that means
God :don’t worry , I will through u a bone, when u're in trouble…believe me ..i always will…
Me :ahh.soo
(big dude walks in ,)
Big dude : " your time is up. Time to hit the dirt.
(takes me away and as I was ready to be transported to earth, he luks at me again )
Big dude : see u at ua coffin (winks)!!!
Friday, May 11, 2012
Till I Rot
(The character mentioned here is fictitious):
I'm walking on my own
This lonely road that stretches all along
I've been through this path before
But tonight head is heavy, my heart is sore
I feel no more , I've long lost my smile
My mind is numb , my thoughts embraced filthy line
Bathed in sin ,I've clothed my evil soul
I've stepped on tears, my pride has taken its toll
I've sold my soul ,I've bought all I could take
I've traded my heart ,replaced it with hate
I saw no good ,I saw no god ,I never turned back
I built my fortress , grabbed an empire and I painted 'em black
Tonight I'm all alone, I'm afraid to think
I can smell me stink , I can feel me sink
Regret have filled my mind ,darkness filled my eyes
I'm blind ,its too late, I wish I had chose the otherwise
Now,the storm strikes in and cold wind blows
I wish this pouring rain could wash away my flaws
To cleanse my heart and soothe my soul
If these winds could carry me somewhere I could start over it all
Rain have soaked me wet ,but I'm drenched in grief
I'm drowning in tears ,shedding like an autumn leaf
I stripped all my clothes and I'll pray awful lot
Let my heart bleed , till I rot
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